Feeling Like I’m Ready to Die?
Question by Tania: Feeling like I’m ready to die?
Brief history:
I’ve had my psychological problems since my early teen years, but wasn’t diagnosed until I was 16. My diagnoses was borderline personality disorder, severe depression and complex post traumatic stress, and anxiety. I have had traumatic experiences as a child and as a teen. As years progressed I have developed agoraphobia, and I have anxiety almost everyday
I was not medicated until the age of 20, as it stands, I am on anti depressants and a mood stabiliser. I have seen councellors, psychologists and psychiatrists. None of it helped.
My situation over the last two weeks has gotten worse. Two weeks ago, I suffered one of the worst anxiety attacks I’ve ever had in my life, and to add insult to injury, nobody, apart from my fiancé, gave a shit enough to see how I was doing! Now my best mate is pissed at me, and I don’t know how she gets off being the injured party, but she is. I’m afraid to voice my feelings because everytime I do she makes me feel like shit, and I’m terrified of being kicked out (ive been bounced around a fair bit through my late teens, and the last three years of my adulthood) She seemed a lot nicer BEFORE I moved in. Now she’s just a b**** with a capital C. I’ve lived in a refuge before, and I can’t go back!
Why is this the tip of the iceberg?
Well, I always wondered that if I died would anyone notice. Well this incident pretty much answered my question.
My fiancé is as supportive as he can possibly be, but he has a job that we can’t afford to lose, I don’t work because of my disorders. We can barely afford to support ourselves on the money he’s making, which is why we haven’t got our own place.
I honestly think if I died everyone would be a lot better off. Yes, I have had a lot of time to think about this. I just want it all to stop.
Best answer:
Answer by Morgan
No. You are not better off dying. Everyone deserves to live. If you died, how woukd you think you fiance would feel? He would miss you more than anything. The reason why he works is because he wants to live the rest of his life with you. Please don’t do anything you will regeret! xoxo
Answer by Izaya Orihara
I think you need to go see and talk to someone, suicide is never the answer, yes. Life is hard but you need to stay strong and don’t let thing like that get in your way. Your a strong person, just get over this part of you life. And people would not be better if you were gone. It’s break people’s hearts when people they know and love die. It will get better
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